Greetings readers (there are some!)
Someone sent me a message wondering at why I'd have a Creed song as something I identify with, in particular Weathered. Scott Stapp, the former lead singer of this band and now a solo artist came from a Christian home and has recovered his faith. He has struggled with alcohol abuse, a messy divorce and being in the public eye. Creed were often bagged for their Christian lyrics and Scott's very public fall from grace.
My story isn't the same. I became a Christian at Uni, would consider myself as an Evangelical, which means something different depending on whom you speak to. If I lived in the US I would probably not vote Republican and I only used to vaguely subscribe to a literal 6-day creation.
Anyhow, why identify with the lyrics "No I can't accept the life that's mine"? Well, who can? I often think of Paul's words in Romans about not being able to do the good I want to do, but instead doing the bad - the difficulty of actually living an authentic life. I preached on Sunday on Lamentations 4.1-12 and Romans 1.18-32 that sin is living an inauthentic life that blasphemes the image of God in us and dehumanises us. If only I (and anyone else) could be consistently authentic in life.
In a minute of honesty, I find "I'm rusted and weathered; Barely holding together; I'm covered with skin that peels and it just won't heal" is the picture of sensing the difficulty of holding life together.
However, like many of the Psalms, after contemplating finding a way of "Sometimes I feel like giving up" in the the ultimate face of death (very Ecclesiastes like) "Ashes to ashes and dust to dust", there is the bridge
"Take all this pride
And leave it behind
Because one day it ends
One day we die
Believe what you will
That is your right
But I choose to win
So I choose to fight
To fight is to return to the task of fighting the good fight with all your might - pride will be left behind in death. "Believe what you like" points me to the fact that although many choose to reject the Christian message, I continue in this belief - and it is according to this faith that I try to keep myself together and attempt to live an authentic life.